"Holy God. This is going to change my life in a zillion different ways. I must be nuts." Vanilla Sky
I'm always asking myself, 'are you crazy?' The answer is always the same- yes, certifiable. I don't know how I get myself into things. Most of the time it is reactionary. Recently I've taken a step back in time, letting someone back into my life for reasons that just aren't clear. Well, that's not totally true. He never really left, he was just kept at bay by distance, situations, and people. He moves me in a way that is unexplainable, I am smitten.
and I hate it.
Men suck they are always there turning your life upside down, breezing in and out creating havoc like a Kansas tornado. I'm not a real touchy feely kinda of a girl. Yet around him I am all nervously giddy, it's like an out of body experience; I don't recognize myself. I should have ran when he strolled up to me and looked at me 'that way'. But no, I stood there rooted to the spot wondering why my drink wasn't stronger and if anyone else could hear our exchange. We have a connection like no other and that is scary. Like being tethered to someone with a bungee cord. Will I jump? Currently I'm standing near the edge hoping or excitement and exhilaration ......but most of all that I won't slam into the ground.
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