Don't Drag Me Down

Usually I try to think the best of people. That generally everyone has something good about him or her and they want well for me. As of late I have been questioning that thought process. If it weren’t for a few people who never cease to amaze me with their generosity, kindness and overall cheery demeanor, I would retreat back to my trust no one state of mind.

For instance, oh yea I have examples, I currently live with a roommate. I made the mistake of mentioning to some people that I had checked out some apartments. Instead of responses like cool, awesome or heck total indifference would be fine. But no, I get:
“not working out with the roommate, huh?”
“does you roommate know you are looking?”
“have you told her your moving/leaving?”

Maybe I’m just over sensitive but um, what? Why does it have to not working out for me to want to move? When I moved in a year ago I hardly believe she thought I would be staying like…forever. Moreover do you even know me? In 17 years I moved 15 times! Moving is what I do. Most of all I’m a grown up, I won’t be moving out under the cover of darkness, that’s not how I roll. Trust me I will be telling my roommate when and where I’m moving to probably before I tell you, now.

Yea, maybe I’m over sensitive… or not.

So I had these two friends (or so I thought) we used to roll together A LOT! Then…..nothing. No more calling, invites, visits, nothing. To be fair I did decide to try something new….but ah, shouldn’t your ‘friends’ be happy for you when you broaden your horizons so to speak? I read that people don’t like when you change because it means they may have to change. People don’t like change. Well that is what I hope it is. Otherwise they liked me a whole lot when I was down and dependent, now that I am standing independently they aren’t so interested.

Luckily I’m a tough cookie, with a few Aces up my sleeve and a couple of cheerleaders in my corner. So while I may not go back to my ‘trust no one’ way of life. I am not beyond cutting the dead weight trying to drag me down. If I get hurt a little in the process, that’s ok, I’ll recover……again.